Dear Diary,
Today actually is de nice day for me, when she bak start again. I duno why, we always de same, always fight, argue. Is really, our houes Fong Shua not that good. I just wan to be nice, happy and enjoy everyday of my life. She always say, wana to be nice to me...HOw nice? how u treat me? how great u give me? always think that we not good to her, not care about her..? hurt her feeling? about us? what u say to your frens about your family? how u talk to us? how u treat us? how many love u give to us? all?? i dun think so...u reali so "Ji si" do u noe how many time u hurt me, make me cry? make me wana go far away for u? I really no nd to tell my frens they alrdy noe . who u r, what is your character. No nd that i mention o i nd to say.. they every tell me first. your sis reali so " par pei". I duno why, i din that wana get argue wot her, she just angry just i dun think nd to be anry about><" reali duno why she i act tos stupid thg. She reali, think who she are? what she reali are? always promise us sumthg n just de blank promises. She always forget wat i told her , but wen she wan me to listen to her.. i nd to alwasy keep on my mind and rmb it. When i forget she will say, u always din listen to her. I really get crazy lar...HOw much u understand me? How is my life goin wit u? i am very sad everytime u noe that...sumtime treat me gud sumtime scold me sumtime hug u sumtime wana slap me...what is tat...>><<<"" i reali so scared to face u.. reali reali..i scared to talk to u scares to near u o be alone wit u..relii..sumtime onli using me for sumthg...n after that live me alone~~
How sad m i, do u noe??how many day i wan to cry for u?? why?? i always ask that why she also dislike about it...why?? ppl born to learn oso? i ask why izit can disturb u?? sumtime i just full of question marks...she really my sis anot? why can treat me lik tat...i reali wan to be happy onli...
n always nd my help oso canot treat me better...scold bak me??ask me do sum favor to her...also get her scold why???why?? wat is that? i dun understand? u keep my life up side down...Do U noe?? i really give up...i tot wen v growth up sure will be fine...but still de same...wen she hav mani frens family onli gt 2 for her...i reali noe that...family is not de first for u...u speck to me u say it is...but i noe is not that first u always say..
I duno why, always i'm de 1 who face tis, pls i just wan u to noe...family is wat for u? reali wat u did wat u get? i tat reali true? maybe i reali born to let her scold o listen tos word tat not good...just dun care ba~~give me have a gud nite dream^.^
All will be better after today^.^
I noe will beXD
