Dear Diary,
Today raining day again, sometime i felt i have nothing at all. When i strat working mylife is just nothing that can i do. When start working life, all i have to do is working, go home n sleep. I cannot do what i want.I really hate that when i wana to start something that i wana do and no one can help me, and i can't do by myself. I nd someone who really want to sit and talk to me? I want someone who can listen to me and to to hit me back o ignoring me. when i need someone by my side is no one that i can call/? i duno who is really can help me..my sis?my frens? no is non of them. My sis only noe about herself n onli care about her self i really noe this.sin wen v growth up.. she always think tat no 1 care about her...how about u do u care about your family? u always say v din ask u tis n tat y not happy why so sad? how about u ? do u ask us? u always jealous about me why my parents care me sayang me? do u think your parents din love u? when they wana care u u just push it away n say dun care about her life dun mass out her life. What u say, they reali care n wil be sad to. U are the first 1 who push it away so u can't blame them, u dislike wat they stop u, but u nvr think why they wana to dis to u? u just noe i am freedom now...i n to walk my life...wat kind of stupid sentences is tis?? U always so JI SI think about your own feeling how about your mum?? your dad?? n me? u just noe how to balme ppl n tell your frens how worst is my parents n me sis treat me? can u tell bak your self how u treat your family? how good u r? working lrdy 2 year plas u still canot affort to pay for de car? just noe how to go trip n buy clothes? n spend money lik so easy? n tell bak your mum no money? n say canot give money to your mum? ya u can spend your mum tat u like but can u think bak u are de first daughter in de house your frens is diffren they have sis borther n still can afford to pay for they parents n no nd them, u are de first 1 u ask bak them your sis gt pay for your mum every month?? do they? do u tell them? u say every month will give money 600 to your mum ??but onli de 1 or second month u pay and few more month u just pay wat?? more less n more less b'cos of ?? goin hong kong goin taiwan goin trip??n always say bak b'cos of my pangkor ??balme bak me tat i din pay n u are de one who ask me to go n u PAY FOR ME HALF tat half is 500 i nd to give? u say de half mean 300 sumthg for each other...tat time i still haven working i really can affort for tis u say u help me pay now u blame everythg to me bak...i really canot think tat how nice trip tat i goin wit u? how nice izit? i always out wit u.. i will feel scard as i duno why i always no ""on chun gam" no protective i feel i better alone more gud..sumthg say treat me sudden say no u pay your self y everyday 1 me pay for u...do u everyday pay for me?do u?? u say u put your family in first ..i really canot feel anythg?? u say u onli come wit us bcos u just de tv let u stay down what kind of word u use to talk to us? n always say v black face to u..what time u coming bak n our face always lik tat de lar...why u come bak should be like marry ground r??welcome n tos guard treat u r? v are not guard v are your family y??always nd to say welcome home happy mou out jor so late onli home??do u think mum nd to day tat to u?? i come bak tat time u oso gt to dis meh??? u just always say n nevr do? u just can do for your frens tat i always noe~~~i really canot do anythg for u anymore...i scared to talk to u i scred to be wit u~~i duno wen i can change tis kind of feeling i hope u sendrii noe lor...plsplspls wat i say u just give aways n u will nvr noe how v wana treat u but u just think tat is nothg ~~tat is nothg~~
