This is come again~

  What is really happen to us?what goin on? WHY WHY WHY?? why human love to play why human cannot think it truth properly ?? jUst noe how to hang out spend money go shop yam cha chit cha~~~I just want to know izit this is what really people want?I always think tat yam cha hang out is nothing~ this is really everyday u can do...but pls...think it right? do u think u can do dis always? and so u think this is always your right to do? What wrong this is just nothing, just spend some f my time wit frens cannot? spend money wit frens, and i just want freedom..this is my right~  u do everythg is right? what u do is reali rite and really good perfect for yourself? DO u ever think about your family?parents? In your mind i can read it ttrow u onli love your frens~ u wan your frens always beside you..You think tat parents always ignore you, never treat u good, never love you, and always spoil your mood and always think your r not right~ you think in your world oni your frens will always support you~ Dear your frens cannot give your all u want~ thy onli beside you just can hav fun wit u make u laugh but wen you say parents they are always beside you and give u HOME! wer u live wer u eat is always they give it to u~ wen u small kids time...who protect you who spebd time wit u who play wit u...who let u eat drink and give u home~
wen some of your frens leave you, u will die pls...u onli will run back to your family~ u now onli noe, my frens always support what i do. Of cos they oso same wit u..same age, same thinking smae mind~ i cannot say that my frens can give me all wat i want~ give love to u,giv hug o u, giv money to you,
Frens love you more than others?frens need you  always? your frens always keep you by your side? your frens always want you be wit her or him? Thnk it rite~ your spend your time more than your family more ..what your family want u dunno, what is really happen wit your family u dunno...b'cos u already spend all your time wit your frens. Now wat your mum think? you just think she always scold you never support wat u do, never love you, hate you, SHE JUST GT 1 THINK DUN WAN U LATE HOME.THIS IS WHAT SHE WAS ALWAYS ANGRY YOU. because you cannot do for her..tats why she always angry you dun let u drive dun wan talk to you.

I really no eyes c anymore...i dun care anymore..i cannot help anymore..!!if you always think tat you are right!better do all wat u wan~b4 your parents die...i think u would oso de same?i reali dunno~

Morning is glory night is danger

 Yesterday when out wit my friends shopping wit them at MidVelly~ I feel so good and enjoy everything ~ V shop around, buy stuff and i bought cheep things..I very Happy in de morning until noon~ The thing come again to me...I already expected  tis day will come and always will come~ i never think this is really always will happen to us~
 I just wan easy life easy way and i just wan IJUST WAN my family happy and healthy always...This is wat i  always pray and always i need~ I never think about me first ..family always first to me..I noe Family is very important to me~ On her, she keep telling me, i oso de same~ reali??really true...dis i really dunno...Maybe i really dun understand her..o maybe she dun let ppl to understand her?
She always said that, v always show her face...adui~ wat time u always at home...v not show face is TIRED FACE~ u around 12 sumthg o 1 onli reach home...still wan to show wat face...''Welcome HOME ya..darling? U alredy noe you mum angry wat?angry b'cos u late home angry b'cos u din help her? angry b'cos u do promise her and din do anything~ Just a little thing u oso can help her..U onli now wah!Always angry always scold me...I already 24 i already adult not a small kids? Who dunno...she born u out and wat is always on her mind is protect her daughter~ She scared her daughter will hav accident out side? she scared her daughter gt danger?  She always scared that her daughter cannot take care herself~ b'cos MUmmy always like tat~ When u become mother...de worry ness is just de same to u~ Hello! world now is 2011~ now ppl is very fake and cannot be trusted and outside many thing can happen~

 She always dunno, ppl not scold u b'cos u din sumthg wrong o u din sumthg terrible at outside...no 1 think u did sumthg like that..your mum is caring u love u onli scold u...she wan her daughter always be save and onli she can sleep well~

 Yesterday when she fire up~ i reali very angry~ i think if i din use her phone this wont be happen? if i din use her money o she pay me money this will never happen? if i din lean her stuff this will not happen? everything is related wit her...sure will happen sumthg~ sure will fire up and sure will fight~
I really dunno why? Truly i really scared my sis, when i wan to talk to her..o  i wan to borrow sumthg i will scared i will think first, wat she will say..do she scold me? angry me? show me face? o mention me ? In my hearts she always let me dun trust her dun wan to talk to her...scared of her..angry wit her. She make me scared her, she make me very ''san fu''. I really want to talk alot wit my sis, when v start talk..i am de listener and when i say she will cannot li tat lar..not dis lar not tat lar...she will never stand my side n c...she always think me is kids mind and say thing is small kids~ This is wat she think about me~ She say, she is always de one who ''tam me'' and when v fight she is always de 1 talk to me first~ pls..b'cos am i scared of u~ so i better dun talk to u...than u will never scold me~ In my mind she always scold me, angry me, say f**k to me~ Actually i hate my family say bad word to me o to my family~ I dun lik it..b'cos in family tis kind of word cannot be out in family mouth~
 Second i will scared her until i dunno wat to say to her and scared until i better dun talk much..sumtime scared until dun care wat she say..just keep inside my hearts better..O write out~ she is monster to me? hahaxx

Just The Day~

 Just another day, today is raining day. My dad and I was in home and on 1 out for lunch at Old Town. Suddenly found that, haven push back de clothes in car park><" all the clothes is wet again T.T. Than de windows din close T.T today really bad for me...i wash again de clothes de car and my dad mop de floor ^.^

Hate That You Ad Dunno

 Day and a day, nothing is change. Always to be a little gurl that dun understanding at all? Pretend dunno what people feeling? Young generation, pls b4 you think about yourself pls think back de older. They always is part of your life. You need to carry them until they live you. Never think that, someday they will live you and they will never by your side? o you just dun care at all? why always ned to gt fight only you happy? Dun just ignore..This is not a choice. This is not that matter, at list you do something for them, but you always do nothing? just wan to go more high end? more jewelry? pls forget about this first. You will be regret 1 day..when you lost something~

NOT IN THE MOOD~

  When you stay so long in same place~ You will feel very bored and you will think so many unexpected and ridicules. I was, always stay at home and do nothing. This is really so upsad and very boring. No work, no money, no shopping, like no life. Is like a people without anything and like wasting my time. I dunno why, at night I only got energy and only wan to start to work on it. I really want to start my portfolio  ler lar..and need to start find work~~I need a job now...i need money i wan to work to spend my time....I wan do everything and won wasted my time^.^ I wish i will get my nice pretty job and a good salary~~God pls bless me get a job Thank you